“He who knows when he can fight and when he cannot, will be victorious”
Sun Tzu---
I REMEMBER…..(Stadium High School—Graduation Night party)I wasn’t supposed to be here tonight, this was something that was exclusive to the graduating seniors. We got a lot of people talking with our play on the football field, but still, this was something entirely different. But Ken called me that afternoon and told me everything would be okay, his reassurances did not help me much as I felt the anxiety growing deep within me as my bus grew closer and closer to the Sheraton Hotel.
Jesus, there it is.
The ding from pulling the bell to signal my stop seemed immensely louder than usual.
God, would you get it together and stop being crazy.
You may be a freshman, but Ken is the Captain of the team and the quarterback. He told you that you could come, so it’s fine. Standing at the back door, I place a slightly trembling hand on the back door and feel the bus slowly decelerate and come to a complete stop. The door opens and the cold night air immediately hits me as I step off the bus and onto the sidewalk. In front of me is a handmade sign proclaiming the location of the Grad Party and I can already hear music inside. Walking over towards the entrance, I see Ken outside standing with Lily.
Jesus, she really is so beautiful.
The two of them looked to be chatting about something, but then Ken turns his head and sees me and immediately waves me over. Lily notices me as well and gives a wave and a smile which seemed to help the anxiety I was feeling. I get over to the two of them and Ken greets me with a hug.Ken: Austin, what took you so long man? I told you I could give you a ride.
Austin: My bus was running super late, sorry man.
Ken: Let me give you a ride next time old friend.
I never understood why he called me old friend. Yeah he was three years older than me, but the term old friend just seemed odd for somebody of his age to use. But then again, in the time I’ve known Ken, I’ve seen that he really is like an old young guy.Austin: I-I just might have to let you do that. Let’s get inside man, its cold as hell out here!
Stepping forward, I opened one of the double doors and stepped inside the ballroom where the party was being held. Holding the door for Ken, he enters and then I hold it for Lily as well. Nervously trying to make eye contact with her, I am instead distracted by the perfume that she is wearing as it hits my nostrils. God she smells go good, what is that fragrance? Never mind that now, stop being weird. Once they are both inside, I allow the door to close and then I am legit taken aback a second as I see just how many people are there and just how good of a time appears to be unfolding. I don’t really know how to dance, but I figure that I’ll stand off to the side and kind of wing it. I knew I looked pretty decent, I mean Ken had to lend me some clothes but they fit pretty well. A little baggy admittedly, but still pretty well given the circumstances. Off to the side I saw Ken and Lily paired up, dancing closely with one another.
I couldn’t help but keep sneaking glances their way until out of the blue I was startled by a girl approaching me. Girl: Hey, do you want to dance?
Holy cow, this girl was attractive and she was actually asking me to dance. Not knowing, or caring about what her name was, I nodded as she grabbed my hand and led me out onto the dance floor. The song that was playing was definitely a more up tempo track and she had a hand on my waist and started moving her pelvis back into me.
I could definitely get used to this.
Just standing around, moving to the rhythm and letting her continue her dirty dance routine I felt myself kind of getting lost in the music. But then I was violently jolted back to reality as I felt two hands forcefully shove me from behind to the ground. Immediately standing up, I turned and I laid eyes upon a very large and very angry looking Samoan guy who was staring me down. Guy: Ay bitch, you grindin and dancing wit my chick!
Is this guy serious?Austin: Chill out bro, s-s-she asked me to dance with her so I thought it was cool.
Guy: That’s my fuckin girl, that shit aint cool, you wanna get fucked up bitch?
Austin: Come on man, relax, I wa-
For as big as this guy was, he apparently was just as fast as before I knew what was going on, his fist had already collided with my nose and I flew backwards onto the ground. Immediately I felt the hot blood flow from my nose and I remember just being so embarrassed, and so angry. Guy: Why the fuck you even here anyway freshman!
Some of the other students already were starting to chant fight as he took another step towards me, but then out of nowhere I see somebody charge into and take the guy down.
Jesus its Ken, is he defending me?
I watch Ken and this guy roll around for a few seconds, until Ken gets on top of him and starts to just pound on him. Some of the more mean students start ridiculing me from the crowd about not being able to fight my own battles, and how I was a pussy. God I was so embarrassed, I didn’t even want to come to this anyway. I needed to get away, the room started to look like a blur as I staggered towards the doors and went back out into the cold night. By now I could feel my nose start to coagulate, but still the metallic taste of the blood had gotten into my mouth. Pacing around back and forth outside, I could feel the tears starting to well up in my eyes.
Do not cry.
Do not fucking cry.
That is the last thing you need to do right now.
Despite my resistance, I could feel the salty sting of the tears as they started to well up and fall from my eyes. God this night was a fucking disaster, why did he make me come here? I just wanted to stay home, where I knew I would be safe. I felt myself pacing around frantically for what felt like hours, even though truthfully it was probably only a few minutes. Next thing I know, I hear a voice from behind me call out my name. I turn and I see Ken running up towards me, other than a black eye, he looks to be fine for the most part. Ken: Are you okay man?
Austin: T-t-that guy just came out of nowhere, I was dancing with the girl and then next thing you know I’m on the ground. He ju-
Ken: Don’t worry about him, my old man definitely used to hit me harder.
I see the doors open and first come out a couple of hotel employees and they are followed by a couple of students who are dragging the guy who instigated the confrontation with me. Jesus, his face was a mess….Austin: You did that? But why…?
Ken: Cause no matter what happens, no matter what life throws at us old friend, I want you to know that I will always be there for you and that I will always have your back.
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CAN I DO IT….(Home of Austin and Lily Starr)
That night at the grad party…that was the night I knew that you and I were going to be friends forever, family forever old friend. With the way that I grew up, it was hard for me to trust anyone. I guess I just sort of assumed that everybody was going to be out to get me. I assumed that they were going to hurt me, so I never let them in; I never gave them the opportunity. But you were different, despite how adversarial I was towards you at times; you just kept offering me your friendship.
You told me that you would always be there for me.
Well where are you now old friend?
Where are you now when I need you most!Austin: LIAR!
Earlier, I had poured myself a glass of whiskey to try and calm my nerves, and I decide to violently heave it at the wall in anger. It explodes on impact and sends shards of glass onto the floor, as the liquid rolls down the wall it almost paints a metaphor of how my life has been as of late.
Christian Knight.
You are responsible for all of this.
But I made a promise that I would walk away.
Despite a ravenous desire to find him and kick his teeth down his throat, I have to protect my family.
I can’t put them through this anymore.
Walking towards the window, I take a long somber look up at the full moon. Are you up there watching me right now old friend? What would you do if it was me that passed away? Would you honor your promise to her and walk away?
Of course not, you would storm into the arena and kick the crap out of him just like you did that night at the grad party.
What am I going to do old friend?
Feeling a warm hand on my shoulder, I turn around to see Lily standing in front of me. Neither of us has been sleeping well since that night, and one look at her told me that she had been recently crying. Grabbing her for an embrace, I feel my heart sink as she starts to slowly tremble and cry again. The sadness that my family is feeling only fuels my anger further. She then takes a step back, sniffles and looks up at me.Lily: Are you going to get him Austin?
Wait, what?
Did I just hear her correctly?Austin: Lily, what do you mean?
Lily: You know exactly what I mean, are you going to get him?
I wanted to scream yes, I wanted to let her know that I was going to be the White Knight and avenge the wrong that had befallen our family. Austin: Darling, I-I-I can’t. I can’t do it. I made a promise to you. I can’t put any of you through that again.
Lily had always been against Ken and I wrestling, I thought telling her that I wasn’t going to fight was the right answer. But what happened next shocked the hell out of me.Lily: Excuse me…
Austin: I made the d-
Lily: Stop!
Do you hear yourself right now?
Austin, I am tired.
I am tired of feeling like I am powerless in my own life!
I am tired of watching the men that I love get taken from me and feeling like there is nothing that I can do about it.
I’m tired of decisions being made for me, now I am making my own.
Austin, do you hear me?
He doesn’t get to get away with this.
He doesn’t get to get away with what he did to our family!
I can feel my mouth just hang open, due to the shock.
Lily has never been enamored with the idea of Ken and I wrestling, we knew that if she had her way that we would retire and ride off into the sunset. But despite her feelings against our wrestling, she has always been there to support us.
Where did this all come from?Austin: I can’t. I don’t know if I can do it Lily.
This man is s-
Lily: Listen to me Austin!
I never thought I these words would come out of my mouth, but I want you to fight.
You have to fight!
You have to make this man pay for what he did to our family.
Austin: I don’t know if I can win Lily.
Lily: You have to win Austin.
Do it for your family, do it for your brother.
But you have to win.
This man has to answer for his actions Austin and you have to be the one to make him do it.
You know as well as I do that Ken would do the same for you.
You have to win….you just have to!
Grabbing Lily once again and pulling her in for an embrace, I find myself feeling more empowered than ever. She’s right; Christian doesn’t get to get away with this. I have to fight, and I have to win.
I thought that I was protecting my family by wanting to walk away, but I see it now.
I’m going to get him.
Keep me safe old friend, give me the strength to help me win.
I need it….---
LAST WORDS(Law Offices of Schwartz, Stein, and Sternem)I hate funerals.
They just feel so artificial to me, almost like I’m living a really clichéd bad dream.
Sentiments shared there never felt real to me, but then again death in itself has never felt real to me. There was something that just seemed different this time about Ken’s funeral. There was a chilling finality that I couldn’t help but shake, no matter how hard I tried.
There were so many fans that came out today to show their support. Jesus, I already knew that Ken was adored by the fans, but even in my wildest dreams I never thought his influence was this far reaching. I lost count of the number of fans that came up to myself and Lily and just shared stories about how Ken touched their lives. It was just an incredible experience to go through.
We were family old friend, but even I had forgotten just how special you really were and just how much of an impact you made on people during your time on this Earth.
Originally after the ceremony concluded, we were all going to go home and just be alone for a little while. But I received an unexpected call from the law offices of Schwartz, Stein, and Sternem with a request to see them immediately to discuss the will and final wishes of Ken.
Ken had a will?
Old friend, you were always good at keeping secrets…only sharing them when you felt it was the right time. When I told this to Lily, she was as perplexed as I was but we both decided that all of us needed to go there right away. Pulling into the parking lot and getting out of the car I felt a feeling of curiosity come over me. When the four of us entered the office, we were immediately greeted by a short and very heavy set man.Man: Mr. Starr! My name is Jim Schwartz, how are you sir?
He offered me a handshake which I accepted, jesus his hands are slimy. Austin: We’re alright. We received a message about needing to discuss a will and f-
Jim Schwartz: Right to business…I can respect that! Yes, I handled all the affairs for Mr. Walker’s estate and if you folks would follow me I would be more than happy to discuss it with all of you.
Following this man down a long hallway towards his office, I find myself getting intrigued. What could this all be about? Following the lawyer into his office, he takes a seat in a plush chair and motions for Lily and me to sit down as well. Michael just stands off to the side and I see Lily take out her IPhone from her pocket and hand it to Savannah to play with. I see Jim take some papers out from a desk and start to shuffle them. Once he has himself organized, he clears his throat and starts to speak. Jim: Mr. Walker was a simple man, chose to live modestly and would only take chances on endeavors that he swore would be sure things. Funny thing is, the man was right more often than he was wrong. Despite the gross misconception that Mr. Walker was broke, he was actually squirreling away quite a large sum of money.
Thanks to my father’s passing when I was a child, I have been fortunate enough to never have to worry about money. But just to hear that Ken had squirreled away a large sum while choosing to live in near squalor baffled me. What were you planning old friend?Austin: How much money are we talking?
Jim Schwartz: At the time of his death, Mr. Walker had over five million dollars spread out over several accounts. The exact amount I believe is $5,100,000 and he decreed that every cent of it is to go to Michael with only one rule attached.
Five million dollars! Hearing this news visibly shocks Michael who takes a few steps backwards and leans against a wall.Jim Schwartz: The only rule Michael is this; Mr. Walker has decreed that you must use this money to make any of your dreams possible. Chase what you want to be in this world, and ensure that this money helps you and your family from never having to struggle ever again.
I can see Lily look over at Michael and then at me shocked.
Good for you old friend, I would have done the exact same thing.Jim Schwartz: There is also a tape that Mr. Walker requested only be seen by Mr. Starr, Mrs. Starr, and Michael Walker.
Before we can even respond, we see Jim walk over to the television nearby and turn it on. Pushing a button, we see the DVD tray pop out and he puts the movie in. Walking towards the door, we see Jim dim the lights and exit the office. Lily, Michael and I all stare at the television intently as we see Ken sitting in a dimly lit room in a comfortable looking chair. A lamp to his right hand side is casting the only light in the room. After clearing his throat, we just see Ken stare into the camera for a moment before speaking. Ken: Hello, I’m sure I can imagine the emotions that you all are feeling right now. I wanted to take this time right now to share some final words with each one of you. I know that this is probably something that should have been said face to face, but honestly, who the hell is good at that kind of stuff anyway. I needed this chance, to be alone with my thoughts so I could truly speak from the heart.
Michael, I’m going to start with you Michael. I know that I wasn’t in your life as much as I should have been and I know it made you very angry towards me because of it.
I can see tears’ starting to well in Michael’s eyes as Ken continues. I wasn’t the best father Michael, but I want you to know something. I want you to know Michael that you were the absolutely best thing that ever happened to me. The day that your mother gave birth to you, I looked up at the sky and I thanked God for giving me such a little beautiful boy. I remember the first night that I held you Michael, you held my finger with one of your little hands and I just gave you a kiss on the cheek and simply whispered that you’re going to be great one day son. And you know what, I was right. It was wrong of me to try and stand in the way Michael of your desire to become a wrestler. Michael, you chase your dream, but I need you to do one thing for me Michael.
I need you to be a better man than I ever was.
I need you to remember Michael that your family is, and always will be the most important thing in your life. Never let them forget that Michael.
Wiping his eyes, Michael quietly mouths “I won’t Dad” as Ken continues in the video.Next is you my dearest Lily.
Lily, you gave me the greatest gift a man could ever ask for. You gave me our son and I never thanked you nearly as much as I should have for it. You will forever have a special place in my heart darling and know that I will always love you. From the moment we first met that night on the football field, to when I closed my eyes for the final time on this Earth, know that no matter what I said or did, that I always loved you. The only thing I ever wanted was for you to be happy darling and I believe you will be now.
Lily starts gently crying as she leans into me. I’ve got tears welling up in my eyes now as Ken continues. Last but not least is you old friend.
Austin, my friend, my brother…you and I have had quite the history over the years. We’ve made magic happen and we’ve brought the house down on numerous occasions. Friend or foe, on camera or off camera I knew that you were going to be great. Do you remember that night at the grad party? Do you remember when I knocked the crap out of that big Samoan shit that hit you? You told me that night old friend, that you thought you were fortunate to have my friendship. You were wrong that night; it is I that was fortunate to have your friendship Austin. You possess a virtuous character that enabled me to be better at what I do. Austin, you gave me the inspiration to do everything that I’ve ever accomplished. Without Austin Starr, there never would have been a Kenneth Walker.
For that old friend I want to thank you.
Do you also remember what I told you that night brother?
That no matter what happens, no matter what life throws at us, I will always be there for you and I will always have your back.
Even in death that will never change old friend.
I love you.
The recording just ends with Ken slowly nodding, feeling the tears fall freely now I just turn slightly and pull Lily in for an embrace. ---
ONE WAY OR ANOTHER(Ascension)Under any other circumstances I would almost be giddy to be walking through these halls again. It was nice to catch up with some of the crew members and other wrestlers. But I wasn’t here to visit; I was here for one reason and one reason alone.
Christian Knight.
Christian Knight has decided that I have no idea what I am getting myself into. He is mistaken; I know exactly the kind of man that I am facing tonight. I know his accolades, I know his rags to riches story of redemption, I know he is the longest reigning World Champion in Thy WWE history. But do you know what
I don’t care.
Tonight isn’t about titles.
Tonight isn’t about tournaments.
Tonight is only about one thing, and that is me defending my family.
Christian Knight is the reason that I had to bury a brother and I am going to make him pay for it tonight. I don’t care what I have to do, I don’t care what it takes. This man will realize that everybody has to answer for what they’ve done.
And for Christian Knight, that night is tonight.
I’m going to kick his fucking teeth down his throat.
For you old friend…---